1st Day of Autumn

Four seasons would be fun to experience, but as they say, everything is not as it seems.

Starting of with summer, which is considered the best season, it's beach time! But the heat can get to hot, might be even hotter than the tropical weather here in Malaysia.

Autumn is when the leaves start to wither, the coldness starts to set in. The dead leaves would be very bothersome right?

Winter can be very fun, with the snow and frozen ponds or lakes. Playing snowballs and making snow angels, skating and sleighing. But all that snow would soon become an obstruction, and the temperature would make everyone start to sneeze and have running noses.

Finally, Spring! The flowers start to bloom, fruits start to fall of trees and right into our hands, animals come out of hibernation. It would seem that life just had a wake up call. But it would also mean that a new school term is up for students, and the working class heroes have to go and save the day.

In a nutshell, whatever good that comes our way, there is also a bad side of it. I'm not saying really bad, but nothing is perfect.
For me, it also applies to people. I'm not a person who has eaten a lot of salt, as they say in malay, "orang tua dah makan banyak garam", which means old people have experienced the up and down's of life and that the younger one should respect that. But in my own experience, i have met quite a variant of people, maybe as friends, customers or even the mutually interested person of the opposite gender.

Let me focus on the last part of those 3 sets of people. The opposite gender. I have my own bad experience in this love thingy, and i have also inflicted bad experiences to other people as well. One person who gave me this bad experience was actually my good friend. She was and still is a good person, with no intention of playing guys. Well, that's what i think so stop judgment and no comments. However, the day that i told her that i actually had feelings for her, that friendship was blown to smithereens, but i knew that it was a mistake that i had to make. I have to say, that i was quite persistent on getting her, so i never stopped, even though she did have a boyfriend, and the boyfriend was another good friend of mine. Thus, two friendships were blown to smithereens. All this while, i thought bad of her, just so that it could make me feel better, which really didn't help at all. Its just that i had the time of my life (so far, but im sure more stuff will be way awesome) with her as a friend and i thought that if we were more than that, things would have rocketed to the sky. But this love thing is a two way street, and if we both don't go the same way, why go to the trouble of trying. This sulky feeling has been with me all the while, and i have been trying to get rid of it. And now, i can proudly say that it is if not gone, it is dead with only a shell of the feeling left behind to remind me of my stupidity to accept reality.

What really made me understand her choice and how things turnout was just a simple movie, 500 hari musim panas, which i saw in BIG CHEESE. People come into our life for a reason, and they also go for a reason. Some people stay in our lives also for a reason. Its not the end of the world like in 2012 or the apocalypse like in Supernatural. Its just that every beginning has an end, and every end leads to a new beginning. Cheers to the movie, and its time to accept things as they are, and also try to see things as what they may not seem to be, because living life in a lie is a life not worth living. Those who still live in past love or need help to get over someone, just try and watch the movie. Seeing how Thomas Hamson get a revelation could be just the thing to ease that wounded heart. And if you're wondering, it's not a love story.