somethings not lukin good.

Today, i tried to study. A minute later, i gave up. FMI.

Accepted!

Ohhh... can you just remember the moment after SPM, when you were having the time of your life, but then when the results come out.. POOF. It was all just a dream.
Now you're rushing to get accepted into some institute of higher education, well, either you're doing it for yourself, or you're being pushed to do it. It all comes down to what's best for you, and naturally at that point of time, you don't know that yourself. That's what i felt, but i don't know about other people. Anyways, i got accepted into this kick-ass university called UTP(University Technology Petronas) and i didn't know what was coming. Tests, labs, and projects hit me very hard and it took time to get used to. It does take time for students to get the hang of Uni life, and i'm pretty much stable at the moment. And when i say "get the hang of Uni life", UTP makes it such a place that you need to find something to do that's enjoyable or fun because this campus is as dead as a public toilet that is not cleaned up.

So while i was getting the hang of UTP, i indulged myself into watching movies, and this particular movie was a bang! The title is Accepted, made in 2006, by Universal Pictures, and the only thing that caught my attention during the first few minutes of the movie was that the female co-star was the one and only Serena Van der Woodsen!! I'm not that big a fan of Gossip Girl, but i must say that this girl is very very pretty(one of the reasons i watched Gossip Girl in the first place).
 

Serena(I don't know her real name)

As the movie progressed, it became more and more funnier and interesting, and soon, the main attraction wasn't just Serena(Monica was her name in the movie) but instead the whole movie itself. The synopsis is like;

A group of highschool graduates did not get accepted to any colleges, and decided to make their own college. It started with acceptance letters and also a fully functional website that accepts students with just one click(the websites motto was "Acceptance is just one click away"). Even the name of the college was funny, South Harmon Institute of Technology which in short is S.H.I.T..

 So eventually, the fake college that was made up just to deceive the group of unaccepted graduates started having more students(due to the one click away scheme on the website). At first, the creator of the fake college, Bartleby, wanted to tell the so-called students that the college was a fake, but after seeing the expression of happiness by being accepted that the students had on their faces, he decided to make the place something real. The courses that were available are made by the students, such as Slacking 101, Rock Our Faces Off 302, and others with very informal names. The college became more lively and the best thing was that the students were learning what they wanted to learn, not what the government thinks they should know. Unfortunately, the place where the college was created was in the way of a construction of a huge gateway for a real college - Harmon, and the dean of the college would stop at nothing to get the gateway done. So eventually the secret came out that the S.H.I.T. was a fake and Bartleby would be sued. But one of Bartleby's friend got them a meeting with the accreditation panel of Education of the state, to try and get S.H.I.T. accredited as a real college. And as usual, every movie naturally has a happy ending, so S.H.I.T. became a real college, with only 1 teacher and dean, and the students teach themselves. And also, all the students called themselves S.H.I.T. heads. Oh yeah, Bartleby got Monica too.

  awesome movie
bartleby: We're shitheads and we are proud to admit that!

It was a great movie, and there's only one thing i can ask after watching it. Am i learning what i want to learn in my Uni? Is it what i want to do for the rest of my life? Oh well, getting accepted is hard enough, so i should stop complaining. I just wonder, what's the purpose of education ? Is it just some kind of propaganda that terrorizes students for 10 years or more and then haunts them for the rest of their lives, forcing them to live the way the system, the government, and the society dictates them to? To me, education can be a life saver in the future, where you can get a good job and salary, but some people have dreams they would die for, and it's a pity if that dream would be killed by our so-called education system. 

It's been a while.

PHuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
So long was it since i posted anything. No reasons, i don't know why.
Its been a rough time lately, or rather, these few months.
Haven't been doing what a student should be doing, and have been doing stuff student's should not.
The details, well, just to keep it simple; it ain't pretty.

This blog will soon become a trashcan of thoughts and regrets, hopes and failures, and stuff like that.
I just can't find another way to take these things of my mind, so hopefully, this might work.
To make things clearer, for me, cause' i wanna read this later after i post it, i will start of with a story.

Once upon a time, this boy like this girl. This girl was perfect for the boy(so it seemed) so the boy was head over heels for this girl. Unfortunately, by the ever so random choice of fate, this girl only wanted the boy as kawan. But the boy don't want that, and after certain human mistakes, the boy decided to completely ignore the girl. Well, after a while, the girl was sad(so she said) cause her kawanboy is not her kawan anymore. But the boy began to see that he was being selfish and stupid, so he maafkan her, and invited her to his birthday. The boy still has that present she gave him until now (using it i may add). But after secondary, the boy and girl began to drift apart, so the boy go and try to close the gap before the girl went overseas. He still kept in touch with her when she was in a land far far away. It seemed like they were closer than ever before, only that it "seemed' that way, unfortunately not. So this girl got together with a boy who is a friend of the kawanboy, and the same human mistake happened again, causing a more severe ignorance complex. After all that happened between the girl and her kawanboy, the kawanboy will surely have a major hard time to get things together. So the kawanboy stupidly got together with a different girl he liked. The kawanboy decided that time will make him fall for this girl. It at first seemed that way, the kawanboy liked this girl very much, and would do many things for her, even stuff that would get him in serious trouble with his parents if he were found out. But the kawanboy started to realize, the way the relationship was working, he would keep getting disappointed and depressed. This was because everything the kawanboy does for this girl, it was only tearing him and the girl apart. Another point to add was that the parents of the kawanboy, were strict about dating. So the kawanboy had to lie each time, and this didn't make anything better. And the kawanboy started to mistreat the girl, and make her feel bad, and although he realized it, he didn't have the guts to keep up. He did try to make her feel better, it wasn't hard to do, but still, he could not do it. From liking to duty, he knew what had become of this thing he had with the girl. So he had to do the hardest thing. He had to become the bad guy. Well, considering the facts, the kawanboy was a badguy, so the kawanboy did it anyway. *break*
The irony is that the kawanboy misses the girl very much but knows that the girl will be angry, and things will not be the same, but he did it because he cares for her. He knows and hopes that there is another boy out there that can give her what he could not because she deserves much more. *the end*

Okay, end of story, and from what i have learned, friends are always friends, if you cross the line, it's gonna take a huge U-turn to get back. And also, there is more to doing the right thing than doing it just for self gain.
This is the first time i ever told this story, and to be frank, i'm quite embarrassed by just typing it. But then again, i like to keep stuff to myself, and i don't have a freakin' diary, so i'll just post it here where nobody reads it. I'm not emotional or depressed, i just have a lot in mind, and i've got study week ahead, so my mind works best empty, or not full.