No Pics, just Words.

I have to try to keep this blog alive. Syg je buat if i don't update it.

It's a funny thing when all you can describe something is written in words, but no picture to present. But with words, anything is possible, like when i say i have hair that spikes like a porcupine. First thing that comes to mind is "He's got punk'd hair.". But nah, i don't have spiky hair. My hair barely stands up. Get my point?

Therefore, it is much more interesting to read something in words, imagining what the hell the writer is trying to describe, compared to checking the real thing out, which can be quite "potong stim".
I remember reading the Lord of The Rings book, and it was describing this city call Minas Tirith. How the author, Tolkien, described it, the place was a living paradise on earth. Thankfully, when the movie came out, Minas Tirith was portrayed beautifully and absolutely fit to be considered a marvel of construction, but only in fantasy. Cause' the city was actually carved out from a mountain, and was so splendid(kuno) that the idea itself would baffle even today's architects.

Anyway, that's what makes movies that are adopted from novels such great masterpieces. Sadly, not all are that way, and even the ones that were are starting to lose their charms, probably because anxious movie goers who can't wait for the movie to be released go and purchase the book and find out what happens in the story. Ah, what a waste. Pretty good example is Harry Potter. The first one came out. It became a hit. Not watching it in a cinema would be the regret of your life. Now, i think it's the Sixth one already, but i haven't even watched the Fifth, not even the downloaded copies. Its because everyone has already read the ending, read all the books, and all that's left to do is to see the cast of the movie and the special effects. ALL ON TRAILERS. But the movie industry is still making big bucks, so whatever.

Sorry for the random thought, saja nak isikan blog nie.

U know what i think?

O.O

I don't really care about what people use their blogs for, but the income they get(if they make it a business) is quite tempting.
As for me, i treat this blog as a trash can. A place to dump all my stuff that i can't tell other people or stuff that would just burden their minds if they were to try and rationalize and then conjure up a neat conclusion, in addition to a whole new set of advices which keep ringing the same tone as ones i heard before.

Current mode = I don't know what to do(besides the obvious -> studying), And I'm caught up in stuff i don't even remember getting into, or even worse, i don't know what they are.
So here i am, dumping my rubbish, on my blog... For my poor readers to read(if there were any, hopefully none cause' it makes me look pathetic ha-ha).
Jammed with thoughts, desires, and regrets, it is hard to focus and get things right. Thankfully, I've got my own type of cigarettes to deal with this. A pack full of DotA and on-and-off futsal games which wears me out physically, allowing me to forget my mental disturbances.

I just wished, for once, i would get my original drive back. The one that got me started on this path. Without a drive, this keeps feeling like a job that has to be done for the sake of doing it. The process becomes impossible to enjoy, the results fail to satisfy not only the person assessing it, but also the person doing the job. If i could sleep now, and wake up knowing that i have something to do, and my soul filled with passion in doing it, life in campus would be so much more lively. Instead, I'm stuck finding stuff to do to cover-up the boredom.

The more this feeling of emptiness remains, i am fearing that even the drama's using foreign languages will not be enough to suffice for my lack of activities. I know this can't continue, it would be very dangerous to my pointer, but what can i do? What is there to do when the root of the problem is not known? Or maybe the problem is known, but there ain't nothing in the world that you/I can do to solve it?

There you go. Tonight's rant about what i think about whatever that is on my mind but not a single focused theme. Or maybe the theme is myself? Who knows.

Trouble...

Trouble is not a friend.
Damn that song from Lenka, nobody wants trouble as a friend.

I might be talking out of my way here, but its my blog, so I'll blab about what i want.
Ha-ha.
At first i thought it was going to be a long time. Really.
But then, time flew by me.
I was thrown right into the real deal!
UG!
Still time flew faster than i could shout," Oi, i haven't finished studying yet!".
There goes my first semester in UG. Three more years left.

Holidays, ah, got to spend precious time with my "dear".
Had the time of my life with her too.
Hoping a lot that there's more to come, but only time will tell.
But apart from that, trouble came along...
Like i said, i don't like trouble, that's why I'm not friends with him/her/it/whatever in the first place.
Financial crunch(not that serious but enough to be troubled.)
Family Misunderstanding(kinda left a hard-to-go-away stain.)
Distance(why the hell must studying have to be away from home.)
InnerSelf(the Force is troubling in me...)
etc...(I'm not being dramatic or anything, just pouring some badass water before i get corrupted.)

But I trust that I will be able to see this true. Life is like this, so i will start to shut up.
Ha-ha.
It could have been worse, so this is the end of my complaining, and the start of my working.

And if "you"re reading this, i will try my best, as a 18-year old student, to rearrange my priorities, and "you"re gonna be way up in the list.

Inspired Me...

Yeah, we live with regrets...
Regrets make a big part of our lives...
How stupid were we when we did/didn't do what we would regret...

That, up there, goes to me!
Do you ever say to yourself, "Sayang oh sa tida buat macam tu",
"If I only i did something", and so on with other quotes of regrets,
all saying the same damn thing...

THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT
IT WOULDN'T HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS

But I'm done thinking about my regrets up to now.
Yang sudah, akan "stay" sudah.
Yang baru akan datang.
New stuff coming my way, so goodbye regrets,
hello new opportunities and challenges,
and i'll always be reminded, i will have the time of my life.

p.s. feel like mixing up the languages a little.
inspired by Adventureland and Time of Your Life.

Just Lose It!

Now i know what that means...crap...

cuckoo!

hurm, how do you figure out what to post in a blog?
is it daily happenings in your life?
or, just some random movie or song that you like?
funny, just by thinking about this useless yet quite annoying dilemma, i got a new post!

Hmmph...

wow... it's been some time since i last posted anything on this blog.
not that anyone would read it but, still, it was suppose to be a hobby(haha).
i don't know how other ppl manage but i cant seem to blog at least once a day!

forget it, but i wanted to write about how ironic life is, actually mine, but only in a very short term.
who am i to talk about how life is? im just an 18 year old guy, but imma just say it.

remember when u were a kid, and u got all sorts of promises if u did this and that?
well, u still get them even when u have aged. i get them, haha.
but as far as i can remember, one in particular was the promise that my dad gave me.
it was before spm(government exam) and i was being a very rebellious teen.
"im going to the library, be back in the evening!", was what i'd say to my parents.
but after putting my bag in the library, i would head to the cybercafe :)
it kept going on like this, but it reduced when my dad caught me in the act.
thats when he promised "study now, and you can do anything after ur spm".

SO after spm, it smelled like freedom! but the ironic part is that i was still treated as a school kid.
No going out at night, must have a good reason to go out, and etc.
Spm results? I got very suprising results considering my activities(dota) before and during the exam. Results good enough to get a scholarship.
Still, the same thing happened, no true teen freedom.
Okay, if thats not enough, Scholarship Secured? Yeap, i did secure a good one.
Still, school kid rules bounded me.
Hmm, even after getting good results for my foundation year, DEANs list for both sems~
Still, no change.
18 years old?
You guessed it, not much freedom. Even alcohol is prohibited.
but i still tried on my own time.
And the real sad part is, because of these rules that are so hardly intact,
i don't even care to ask for permission anymore.(except for dear *smile)
but its rightfully true that parents can cage their children until the children can feed themselves!

So, for the free people out there (teenagers without curfew), fahamlah skit, haha, coz we (the freedom fighters) have not merdeka yet! I have tasted freedom, and boy, it is fun and exciting...
All those who are being oppresed(not literally, but relating to this post), fight for your freedom!!!
Lekkkk, think first, is it worth sacrificing ur source of income(for now) and the trust ur parents put into you>? Whatever~